Gavin and Aidens first week

On February 11th my twin boys were determined to come into the world 11 weeks early. I was terrified. I knew they weren't ready. The doctors put me on a high dose of Magnesium Sulfate to stop the contractions. After almost 10 hours on the Magnesium it was determined my contractions were not only continuing but getting closer together. My doctor decided to leave the magnesium on the lowest dose possible to protect neurological function of the twins. By 5am on February 12th I was dilated to 6cm. My doctor told me she would go ahead and break my water because the way Aiden was sitting was no safe. They took me to the operating room no knowing what the outcome would be. After my water broke my contractions were so strong it only took minutes for Aiden to come out. I heard his sweet cry and breathed a sigh of relief. He was much bigger that I thought which automatically gave me more hope that he was a healthy boy. Minutes later Gavin came right out crying and moving his hands and feet. I was so happy to see them but so scared that I had brought sons into this world that would have to start out fighting. I feel/felt responsible for putting them in the position they will be in for the next 8-10 weeks. On day 5 after their birth I spoke with the nurse practitioner who was overseeing their care for the day. She told me that there were signs of an infection starting with Aiden and that if he wasn't delivered in the time that he was then the infection would have gotten worse in the womb which would have been very life threatening for him. 
Over the first two days after birth Aiden excelled and was off the breathing tube and quickly transitioned to the c-pap and then the nasal cannula. My poor Gavin was not as ready to come out of his mommy's womb. He has been struggling with his immature lungs. He's trying so hard for us that he stresses himself out. He was given adavan to calm him.  His CO2 levels were dangerously high so his doctor changed to type of ventilator to an oscillator which creates tiny puffs of air as to expel the CO2. This morning his CO2 was down and he is only on 23% Oxygen!! I was so happy I started to tear up. I was hoping he would listen to mommy and daddy and just relax and trust his doctors and everything would be okay.